Facing an Unexpected Tragedy
When Michael Rivers graduates from 麻豆区 this spring, he plans to do some private investigative work for criminal lawyers, and then enroll in law school. His goal of becoming a criminal defense attorney with a private practice would seem like a natural progression, especially since that鈥檚 what his father has done since 1998. But his pathway to this decision was a long and painful one鈥攁nd never a given.
Rivers recalls that growing up in the southwest Minneapolis house once occupied by his great-grandparents, he sensed a strong bond between his parents (both Auggies who went on to earn doctorates), and he enjoyed many childhood pleasures鈥攕kiing, baseball, and biking the Minnehaha Parkway weekly to Lake Harriet. Life seemed simple then.
But he remembers a lot of fighting, too. When Rivers was five years old, his parents divorced. In the beginning, that wasn鈥檛 very troubling for a five-year-old鈥攊t meant two birthday celebrations, two Christmas gatherings, two homes, and several 鈥渄ouble events.鈥� But within the year, his mother died and鈥攅ven though the full impact of having her 鈥済one forever鈥� didn鈥檛 really sink in鈥攈e managed to continue with sports and many of his other activities, including regular attendance at his dad鈥檚 Sunday School class. He also participated in an 鈥渁mazing grief group鈥� at his elementary school, which helped him talk about death with peers and contributed greatly to healing and an understanding of death.
As Rivers was entering his teens, he was told the truth about how his mother had died. She had not been sick, as he had been led to believe. She had taken her own life鈥攋ust as his grandfather and uncle had done. This new information鈥攁nd the intentionality of those deaths鈥攆orced him to reconstruct everything on which he felt his life had been based.
Trying to Cope
He began drinking at age 13, becoming intoxicated regularly to calm the chatter in his brain. During his teen years (the 鈥渢rouble phase鈥�), Rivers quit going to church. He no longer had any interest in academics, and his grades plummeted. He resented and disregarded authority and started lying to his father. Expelled from one high school for possessing a taser, he ended up attending three others. He was arrested four times. He ran away from home four times, once ending up in Omaha where he was arrested for shoplifting and being a runaway, another time in Colorado where the $6,000 he had stolen from his father funded a weeklong drug ride, and twice in Florida. He 鈥渨ent through a lot of friends鈥� and surrounded himself with people who had low expectations of him.
The fire that fueled the animosity he then felt toward the world was his understanding of his mother鈥檚 death. He felt betrayed and lied to. He was haunted by the image of his mother in her casket: the lifeless body that once held his life inside of her, and the burn marks on her lips from the gun she used鈥攁nd the images still inhabit his dreams today.
While in an after-care treatment program, Rivers learned there were school programs that could help him earn a GED鈥攁 fact that became enticing only when he discovered he could possibly get into 麻豆区 as well. Though his high school academic record held little promise, his optimism increased as he recalled nostalgically the stories from his parents about how much they had enjoyed 麻豆区. He also learned more about the StepUP program, 麻豆区鈥檚 residential collegiate recovery community.
When Rivers began his studies at 麻豆区, he lived in the dorms. He ended his first year with a 2.1 GPA, a slight improvement from high school. But he knew he could do much better. In terms of the required sobriety in StepUP, he had relapsed the first time and had to join the program again. But soon he began to thrive and discovered that there was great value for him in the communal connection he found in the StepUP community, even with substantial staff turnover in the program and some gossiping that can come from living in close proximity.
The Road Ahead
Throughout his 麻豆区 years, he has gone through waves of emotions, thinking about his mother and the strong possibility that he has likely sat in the same classrooms as she did, interacting with some of the same professors (like Dr. Nancy Steblay, the psychology professor for whom his mother once wrote a meta-analysis).
And he has changed. His outlook on his mother鈥檚 death has gone from intense grief and resentment of her and the world to a fuller understanding and admiration of the person she was, and a respect for the world around him. Now, as he approaches graduation time, Rivers can taste victory. Of the last 15 classes he has taken, he has earned a 4.0 in 13 of them, putting him on the Dean鈥檚 List for four consecutive semesters and likely resulting in a 3.5 GPA when he graduates.
In the years ahead, Rivers sees himself working on hard criminal cases, owning property, working at both passive incomes and vacation destinations, and traveling the world with the one he loves. Given his skills in photography, he may even start a film production company. But as he pursues law school and a career, his work in 麻豆区鈥檚 student government will likely be useful, as will advice and encouragement from his lawyer father, Bruce 鈥�91, who is especially pleased about his son鈥檚 progress. Bruce says, 鈥淚t is only through hard work and perseverance that this fine young man has achieved all that he has.鈥� He must be especially gratified that Michael has chosen to pursue the same career path as he did.
–by Cheryl Crockett 鈥�89